Things have been rough...

Looking back through my portfolio/collection of art pieces, I'm really starting to wonder why I even decided to pursue art as a career. It seems that, these days, everyone wants to go to med school. Even though math and science have never been my strong points, a career in medicine would guarantee me a well-paying job, whereas a career in art is uncertain. Your pay all depends on what the client wants and, if they're not happy with the final product, you won't get paid as much for the job. As for me moving to LA and working in the music industry doing album art, I've decided not to do that. At this point, I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to do when I finish college. I just wish that I hadn't fucked around in high school and had been able to get into a 4 year school right off the bat, mainly because I wish I had gotten the whole real college experience.

I'm just...not happy. I've lost several friends (some moved away, others got jobs and haven't been available, others I just grew apart from) and I haven't done anything fun with anyone since...I don't even remember. I STILL don't have a goddamn job, so I'm still having to rely on my parents for money. I don't know what's going to happen when I'm away at a different school next year.. I'm lonely, I'm bored, and I just feel like an overall failure. I feel like I've failed myself, my parents, and those around me. I know that everything happens for a reason, but I just can't see what good is going to come from all of this. Even when I've moved out and am on my own, I'll probably be working for minimum wage, barely being able to get by, while almost everyone I know goes on to become these amazing, successful doctors and lawyers. If I could change my career path now, I wouldn't think twice about it.

Considering taking everything down from here, since no one seems to care about my bullshit art anyway.

You heard right! I'm selling a perfectly good metal DDR mat. I got it for Christmas about 2 years ago and I only used it...maybe three times. It's been sitting under my bed taking up space and collecting dust. It's still in great condition and everything still works. Will probably be selling it for around $200, since I think my mom paid around $250-$300 for it (yeah, not cheap, hence why I'm so hesitant to sell it.) I hate to sell it, but I don't know what else to do it and I /really/ need the money. I will be putting it up on eBay if no one on here or FA shows any interest in it. Note me if interested!

Yes, it's back to school time! I'm happy, but at the same time sad that the summer's over. Aside from the drama I dealt with, I got to bond with my boyfriend along with my other friends, I got to reflect on the mistakes I made spring semester, and I figured out that I hate my damn hometown. So, what I've decided to do is see if it's at all possible for me to finish up and get my associates degree in the spring, and then transfer to an upstate school that's not too far apart from my boyfriend's campus.

Anyway, this semester I'm taking digital photography, Photoshop CS4 (HATE!), public speaking, and English 102 (not any different from Eng. 101). Also, I'm looking at getting a drawing tablet for my birthday so I won't have to draw by hand, scan, and ink. Coloring and shading in Photoshop without a tablet is a bitch.

I'm making myself learn to use a Mac this semester (last semester I just brought my laptop to my Photoshop CS3 class so I wouldn't have to use a Mac), and I don't see why people say that they're so easy to use. They're a pain in the you-know-where. Everything's all...different D: But, from what I've been told, they show more "true to life" color, but I really don't see it.

Anywho, expect some photos and stuff up here in the coming months!

Okay, so as a very select few of you know, I have an account on FurAffinity (and for those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like DeviantArt for furs. For those of you who didn't know I was a furry and aren't too happy about it, get over it). Seeing as how my drawing style has gone from crappy people drawings to not-so-crappy fur/anthro related drawings, I will be posting my drawings there. My DA will be reserved for my photography, photo manips, and fiction of any kind. My FA is KaelHemlock, so keep an eye out there for new drawings and such.

Only because I feel like it...

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Ok some facts about me:
1) I tried out for the cheerleading team in middle school.
2) I can't digest certain fast food.
3) I prefer animals to children.
4) I can go a max of three days with out eating. (I still drink water and stuff)
5) I'm paranoid
6) I attended private school for middle and some of high school.
7) I hate grits (And I'm from the South xD)
8) I think retarded music is the best kind of music

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